Reality Check

I called your house and got no answer,
seems like it's always been this way.
Were it I the one to need you?
Although you never were around.
Maybe we'll keep this up,
with myself pursuing yours.
Don't think I can keep this up,
without a single word...

Because inside I'm furious,
on the inside, I hate.
Inside, I might breathe again,
outside I can't wait.
On the inside, there's no telling what I wouldn't do...

You never have, you never will,
gave a damn about how I feel.
You never told me about heaven,
but you always give me hell.
Tripping over my mistakes,
and to think I learned to walk.
This weight isn't all on me,
are you prepared to take your share?

Because inside I'm furious,
on the inside, I hate.
Inside, I might be me again,
outside I can't wait.
On the inside, there's no telling what I wouldn't do...

I called your phone and no one answered,
seems like it's always been this way.
I thought of leaving you a message,
but not quite sure what I might say.
I was writing you a message,
wondering if you'd read it anyway?
How do you make him stay home,
when all he wants to do is roam...

Because inside I'm furious,
on the inside, I hate.
Inside, I might see again,
outside I can't wait...

And somehow I know you're out there,
bleeding out off in the distance.
Maybe somewhere your hearts still beating,
but we both know that's not true.
Maybe somewhere you're still breathing,
but we both know it's not true...

I called your name but no one answered,
seems like it's always been this way.