Get me out of this front row seat and put me in the movie,
I want to have control of my own life and yet I'm not the one in the driver's seat,
I crave a love that flows like water,
I'm lost but I know where I am,
I'm confused but I know what I'm doing,
I'm angry but I'm calm,
I'm sad but I'm happy,
Nothing satisfies me, and yet I'm satisfied,
Time is at it's standstill,
I hate the way things are going nowhere fast,
Saying to myself that time might as well be going in reverse,
It's taking to long to get to where I need to be,
I'm pinned down and locked away, but if I wanted to I could get loose,
Yet I wouldn't know where to go when I got there.

Nothing ventured means nothing gained,
If you don't believe how will you achieve?
If you don't try to be how will you?
You must learn to fight the tides,
Hang me here or watch me drown,
Pushing forward with nothing found,

And I remember when this was my life.